Since you, Madeline, and others, are relatively new to USMB, as I, I will state my beliefs again.
I am an agnostic. That is why I am not a Christian. And while I live a Buddha
like lifestyle, I am not a Buddhist, for I do
not believe in an afterlife. I also do not wish to be bound by the constraints of marriage[ again ] or religion. I live instead, a Christian-like or Buddha-like existence and am very happy with a kind and compassionate nature. I live a moral life.

Heaven and hell are right here on earth, and you will experience them as often as your choices take you there.
I believe in the universal law of cause and effect--
the empowering conviction that we all ultimately direct our own lives.