Thanks, Foxfyre. I've been to the doctor, and her medicine is kicking in. I also found a couple of homeopathic assists--beet roots and leg cramp stuff, at Walmart. A couple of others, too, but between that and remembering to take the allergy sprayer, I'm getting up and down the staircase with no pain. But this morning, when I tried to do a Spanish lesson, my score was about 15%. I finally threw in the towel and decided to have my coffee here to wake up my puddin' head brain. I have a 44 year memory of totally good times when my late husband was alive, and it's true that absence makes the heart go fonder. My thoughts of romance ended when my houseguest got a trailer, put it under my horse arena with no sewage hookup and after almost a year of criticizing my cooking, and everything else under the sun. He says he hates my politics while saying the same things I believe in, and I've asked him to get off the property, but he hangs around. I can't chase away a Vietnam Vet, I just won't do that. He says he loves me, but after two minutes of "good morning," I'm under the criticism gun, and I'm not a bad person who deserves to be hammered over spending too much time sewing/crocheting which is now the unacceptable fault of me. Good grief, it makes me realize how good it is to have had a man who put up with my little ins and outs for 44 years, and I feel so totally isolated my doctor gave me an antidepressant. Unfortunately, it made me sleep all day and wake up 3 times every night, missing the best man who ever lived. He really was. He lived for me and his charities until he lost his battle with dementia. My faith is stronger now, but what I wouldn't give to have one of his loving hugs for five seconds, six years after he's been gone. 'Scuse me while I go get a memory pill. When I take them, I don't miss a single pluralized Spanish noun, but this morning, I was so fogged out I took a break for a cuppa.

And I'm feeling better after reading some posts here that I've been missing a whole lot. This morning I woke up, and in spite of a swollen foot, I haven't the slightest vestige of cramps and seizures in my legs. And after venting, I can look over at the arena and not be the least bit annoyed, since virtual friendships bring joy to my soul.

Love y'all!