Thats a shame. The good news is, because I have spoken with you, now you can do infinitely better.
How do you repent? Do you confess your sins to a priest and then ask him to ask God to forgive you, and then immediately get down on your knees, recite a few prayers, set aside the first command, and then worship and eat a lifeless matzo MADE BY HUMAN HANDS for spiritual life, which is in itself sinful, IDOLATRY, to show God just how sorry you are for your sins? Impressive.
Do you really think that God is an idiot? You must.
Good intentions, but how in hell do you expect to do that unless you first stop sinning by saying and doing stupid things in the name of the Lord, come out of your tomb, and rise to life? Prayer?
Smarten up!