Get over yourself and stop thinking you know what I'm "really" asking. You not only have not gotten anything right yet, you haven't a clue. First, I didn't ask who hurt you, but who/what scared you, and I asked that because you keep on and on about scare tactics. Second, I didn't know you were angry, so it didn't occur to me to ask why about that. Third, I can't help you--and have no interest in that rabbit hole, anyway.
I still recommend you seek and find God. And, I'm still interested (vaguely) that what scared you so badly that you are warning others people are trying to scare them, too. No one ever tried to scare me.