God has nothing to say to you because you are not listening. God does not stay where He is unwanted.
I was raised in a religion free home. No Church, no Bible, no God, I was in my 40s when God decided I should be a believer. When God decides to pay attention to you there is a world of hurt in your future. My greatest fear today is that God will leave me basically the way He left you.
If atheism is your path follow it boldly without fear.
I will do 100% of everything God tells me. I will do 0% of what others tell me God wants me to do. Does that make any sense? I won't be duped by humans.
God talks to you?
He never has, not one word.
Do you believe the Bible is the Word of God and Jesus is the Word made flesh?
No. If you were honest you would answer no as well.
Humans make a conscience effort to believe absurd things just to gain the benefits of believing the absurd idea. There is no way you believe the beautiful stories in the Bible to be true. That's silly and you know that for a fact. On a personal level ask yourself why you choose to be dishonest. I don't mind you lying to me and to others but stop lying to yourself. You know that shit is impossible. Using a faulty foundation for your basis for logic sets you up to make bad decisions and bad judgements. Be honest. Your deserve to gain maximum capacity from your brain. Treat it right.
Hard wiring your brain to value unrealistic information is a recipe for disaster. Your internal mechanism will be rewarded for believing more lies. This makes you extremely vulnerable to be manipulated politically and even financially.
There is direct correlation to right wing conspiracy theory but jobs and religious nuts. Just observe your surroundings here in America.