Well, God of the Old Testament wasn't exactly a touchy feely person with all that fire and brimstone, sulfuric rain, plagues and the like.You pray, you try and walk the righteous path but God punished you. Have you felt this way? If so, how do you overcome the feeling?
As for the rest of your question, I am reminded of Ranier Rilke's quote: "Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final."