Didn't read this until now. Yes..I can definetly relate. But I don't hate God. He made me strong, bullheaded, stubborn, wise, and able to take care of myself when I finally had enough and left home at 17. Made lots of mistakes, but I learned on my own without being beaten and molested, verbally and physically abused at every opportunity. And yeah...when I die..I don't want daddy meeting me at the end of the white tunnel. I want my dogs there.My mother is still hurting me even though I'm now 54 years old. I can't put to one side all the shit she did to me, and I am still angry at my father for letting her do it to me.