In my life I found that praying often and following the words of Jesus and his true prophets brings enlightenment and joy to my life. Jesus taught, "seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you". I feel that the true answers to the purpose of life and have hope and joy and happiness is through coming to know and understand God and the blessings and purpose of your life. I personally found it in the teachings of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. When praying and reading I came to feel the Holy Ghost in my life and this has made all the difference in the world. I would suggest reading the Book of Mormon. Within the Book of Mormon is a promise that goes as follows:
Moroni 10:3-5
3 Behold, I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things, if it be wisdom in God that ye should read them, that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men, from the creation of Adam even down until the time that ye shall receive these things, and ponder it in your hearts.
4 And when ye shall receive these things, I would exhort you that ye would ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ, if these things are not true; and if ye shall ask with a sincere heart, with real intent, having faith in Christ, he will manifest the truth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost.
5 And by the power of the Holy Ghost ye may know the truth of all things.
I would also say the same thing about the Bible. Ask God if it is true and He will answer you through the power of the Holy Ghost. The Holy Ghost is the third member of the Godhead and it is His mission to bear truth to those who seek after it. God loves you Bulldog, and will not leave you without a witness of truth. It is through humble prayer and seeking after God that you will find him. I will pray for your success that you will be filled with the Spirit of God. I only came to my answers through prayer, study and following the word of God. I know that He can do the same for you.