I'm done. Bored with it all. I still like watching others engage in celebration. I just am done with doing it myself. Every Christmas, the bunch drags in a tree, puts baubles on it, and a few weeks later takes it down and leaves a mess. It's lovely and all but worth the bother? Not really. When I did live by myself, I never had the mess to begin with.
There are adult children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. I find them all a burden but I endure to keep peace in the household. Have you never learned to be comfortable with yourself?