No....think of it as being more like a skeptic
I have heard your definitions of your religion and find them to be laughable. Identical to a child's belief in Santa
You do so want it to be true that you ignore all evidence to the contrary
Its not my definitions. I'm not the first one to recognize the behaviors. I didn't come up with this on my own. It is nothing new. In fact, it is quite an old observation.
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