Considering you can't even bother yourself to read a book in searching for Him, consider me skeptical that you put in much effort
Which book?
I've read the Bible cover to cover. I read a lot. I've read the Koran. I've read the Bhagavad Gita. I started reading the Book of Mormon, but it is such a poorly written plagiarism that I found it impossible to get through.
I try to give most religions a fair shake.
You know that I am generally supportive of Christians and Mormons. While I don't believe your religion, Mormons are generally decent people - same with Christians.