So because I read the passages as they are intended to be read and not literally like you want me to read them. I'm a halfway believer and a backslider?
Yes, that's what I think, and it's what the majority of Americans Christians would have to conclude too.
But I think it's better to be a backslider than to believe any of the bibles literally. That would cause problems in you mind in the same way that it caused problems for Jordan Peterson, but to a lesser degree depending on your level of intelligence.
I'm completely o.k. with what you believe until you start to promote lies and impossibilities from your bible. Then when you or any Christian starts doing that, it's time to hold their feet to the fire.
In your case you're playing it safe, so far at least.