There are many different denominations, interpretations and applications of Christianity, as diverse and unique as each person, group or culture.I am increasingly sure that Christianity is, and has been a joke, and an abuse, and it actually is Paulism. This sounds like evangelical chatter, possibly Southern Baptist. Jesus is another matter. Those important figures celebrated in other religions also are worth considering, along with our own individual thoughts. No human, past or present, from any culture across the world, actually knows anything about the Creator.
I am eschewing organized religion while recognizing the innate experience known as spirituality. Light a candle, say a prayer, send your spiritual energy across the miles to those in need. Maybe recognize the wisdom of the Ancient Ones that comes down to each of us humans. It is in every person's DNA. It is so much larger than can be contained in one single religion. I'm not saying that Jesus is not part of this. I'm saying that He is.
For me, it is time to return to my ancestral roots.
My best advice I can give you or anyone else is not to limit Christianity to only what you see or say it is, especially if yiu have a negative bias.
Christianity means living by the spirit of Charity for all.
Lysistrata if you think of Christian history and religion as only the ABUSE, and you call real authentic spiritual living and practice something else, then the REAL truth you see in life is "what is MEANT by God/Universal laws" and the REAL meaning of true spiritual Justice and Peace for all humanity collectively IS what is MEANT by Jesus fulfilling the role of Messiah/Message for all people and
Being the Authority or Law/Lord over all other laws.
If you keep associating "Christianity" with "negative abuse", we don't have to use that term.
Whatever terms you use for universal laws and principles, and spiritual relations between people and the greater collective body, we can use the terms YOU call these things and have the same conversations, just without religious references or terminology as any type of requirement.
I'm sorry to hear you do not have faith these are based on common, universal principles.
I believe that true justice and peace makes us whole. Whether you call this Jesus or not, this driving force in humanity has to mean that in order to be truly universal for everyone.