Eaglewings if you ever want to tell me why some immediately fall in love with God and have a relationship with him and why others don't, you can tell me that too. I didn't see the offer for me to PM you...
I meant to offer that to you as well, I just figure my post to you was a invitation..my IM is always open for you Bonzo..
I didn't fall in love with God right away,I always felt like I was on the outside looking in for years. I had to do that because I never understood a Father's love because mine died when I was 7 and the step dads were horrible to myself and siblings.
In time He showed me the unconditional love of a father.
Not one of us have the same experience. I do feel that God is knocking at your heart right now Bonzo.
There are people who are also all show, but inside they don't have accountability with God. So the key is to not to look at another's faith because only God knows their heart.
I have written a yearly letter to God about my desires, hopes and dreams. I open it up 6 months later and truly see Him working in my life. Most of the time very slowly and gently in my life. And at times like a hammer over our head to get our attention.