Most of the planet denies your partisan gawds exist. You're really just a typical religionist in that you uncritically accepted the majority religion and gave no thought to challenge the dogma. You're simply a clone. You can, however, derive some comfort in that most people do precisely what you did: you bought in to the dogma you were given.Hollie's angst is so high she does not realize she is talking to herself with "recoil in panic when you're tasked with sch a basic requirement as supporting your argument, and you cannot."
You can't deny God exists. You saying you have is not proof other than you being a goof ball emotionally.