Wow! You so have nothing it's incredible!!
What questions should I be asking? I'm supposed to act on what you say, or what dingbat says? Or what ... says? Maybe when you theists can all agree on something then maybe, just maybe, there might be something to go on.
Its very simple Taz. When you ask why God hasn't appeared to you, you are told that the garbage that fills your head and leaks out all over these pages has built a barrier between you and your God and that to see God you must purify your own mind and be refined. Clean out the stupid infantile emotional resentments that you have been nurturing like a monster hiding under your bed ever since you were 12 years old or so and then you will see God and be healed..
Its not rocket science.
Thats where you go nuts. Your next question instead of acting on that actionable information you ask me if I am jew.
Now thats just more evidence that you are either deranged, or are just getting your rocks off, which by the way is just more evidence that you are deranged.
I got something, what you say that you are looking for. Clarity of mind and the ability to see God everywhere I look.
You got nothing. everywhere you look you see nothing and then start whacking off like a lunatic on a park bench, cackling at your own pathetic aberrations.
You are not looking for God. You are playing spank the monkey on death row, so by all means,,, carry on...