I think people in this thread kind of glossed over my reference to Calvinism and didn’t notice it. I would venture to say that most people posting in this thread neither know what tulip means nor did they bother to look it up. If someone in here was an indoctrinated Calvinist then they would find my assertion that God chose me to be atheist to be very funny indeed. I don’t think anybody in this thread is guilty of accepting Calvinism as Christianity.
I followed the reference to the Augustinian acronym and, thus, to Calvinism and your witticism. In this wise, my hermeneutic is Arminianism. I just think you're too smart to allow yourself to be overcome by the myth of fatalism when you know in your heart of hearts that God exists and made a way for us all. . . .
Guilt or pride? No one is innocent. You can rise above these things. God's not asking you to make excuses or even make amends. The former are vain and the latter was accomplished by another . . . and the glory of his accomplishment is beyond your reach.
God makes things simple for us: acknowledge who you are in the scheme of things and surrender.