The New and Improved what song are you listening to now thread!

[JBeukema]

Tracin' the steps that I take
Feelin' mistakes that are fake
Makin' excuses like imaginary friends run away
To where I've already been
To where I already am
So tell me tell me it'll work out so I'll be wrong again
I look inside I'm surprised at what I see in my eyes
So tell me tell me was I there when I was taught how to lie?
I thought I'd chase paradise but I'll just settle for life
So tell me tell me did I die when I was taught how to lie?
Don't tell me what it'll be because it's all in degrees
And by degrees what I mean is you dont see what I see
So is this falling apart or are these pieces of me?
Is this a nightmare to be or am I building a dream?

When did this come to be?
When did things pick up speed?
Time gone by living in me
Time gone by living in me
Oh ohh
Don't know why (don't know why)
Don't know why (don't know why)
Don't know why I am here
All that I've forgotten is only stoppin to remind me
Only I (Only I)
Know that I (Know that I)
Only I can be my only
Odd sacrifice
I suffered twice and all that I did
Was beleive..

Its funny how life can be the circles dance around me
Drawing a reminder of what I've done and who I've become
Sleepin' my days without dreams, Wakin' a night without sleep
Missing the truth to lie the promises I heard I would keep
Im lost in my paradise, the walls have built in my life
So tell me tell me will I die if I forget how to lie?

When did this come to be?
When did things pick up speed?
Time gone by living in me
Time gone by living in me
Oh ohh
Don't know why (Don't know why)
Don't know why (Don't know why)
Don't know why I am here
All that Ive forgotton is only stoppin to remind me
Only I (Only I)
Know that I (Know that I)
Only I can be my only
Odd sacrifice
I suffered twice and all that I did
Was beleive..

 

[Phoenix]

Love that one, JB. Unfortunately, if I rep you anymore you'll never be the same.

(Well, the board won't let me rep you any more.)

 

[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]

Faced the crowd
in a blind mirror
Skull smashed headfirst
Against this wall of inner need
I knew this fall
Would send it all down towards the lights
And they will question once more
From their unscathed towers

I'll answer:
Go on and force
Your one-bit truth until the end
I'll swallow every bullet
That rips through the hull
A sheltered life crawls forward, vomits
And folds around twin blades
I pull it back like last time
Yet it never cuts through all the way
I always have to take it hostage

Whenever I feel
I find no way to begin
It always bled from within
They fed the dreams so it could rip
I've grown content in this dream
I'll let those others take and give

Whenever I feel
There is no way to begin
I've grown content in this dream
I'll let those others take and give


And if I had:
Leaned forward and let their downpours mask
Preburned fields growing supports for a future set in past
Every reflection would lie and every breath would climb blind
Toward their shallow corpse of a self-lit sky
And just its weight would be enough
To send it all off the edge towards that same undecided mind
Towards that self-absorbed conscience that only screams
So predictably:

"Someone burn me an exit"

Stormed their black-rise tower looming past
Drove them all out into a corner
Of the memory gridmap
Airlocked and silenced, I kept holding back
Finally burned them all alive
Before cutting off my own blood supply
I knew they had it bypassed to a bloodthirsty human mass
That infested with a false promise of a chance
And held a freedom already dried up and past
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[JBeukema]

Under the flood
It always seems so bright
Beneath the murky tides
The cities glow untouched

Under the flood
Their faces, frozen blank
No one to tell me why
The waters always on the rise

And I look back
Where we started
Had come so far
To lose it all
To the abyss
And as I hang on
I'm sure that soon I'll know
Just what it is like

Sinking slowly
Into the depths
The hands still clutch
The swollen faith
That brought them all down at once
Oh, what an ending to a wasted life

Under the flood
We never got that far
The sheets of rain blew past
All our attempts to calm it down

Under the flood
They said the earth cleaned up
All of the stains we brought
And all the roots we tore out

Under the flood
I hope you're happy now
I can't wait
To stop breathing for your human mass
When I'm dead
I hope the planet wipes
Every trace of my existence on this wretched ground

But now it's cooling down

And I look back
Where we started
Had come so far
To lose it all
To the abyss
No escaping it now
Time's up
I'm finally free at last

Sinking slowly
Into the depths
I'm so detached
I've got no faith
Just a fading blank thought
Oh, what an ending to a wasted life

 

[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]

LET IT RAIN A DAY, A WEEK, A YEAR
LET IT RAIN A THOUSAND YEARS A DAY
THAT'S THE DIVINE ANSWER TO ALL THE SHED TEARS
THAT'S THE CYCLIC FLOOD WELL KNOWN BY THOSE WHO KNOW
ONE DROP FOR EVERY BROKEN DREAM
AND ONE FOR EVERY CONCEIVED PLAN
OUR SEEDS SOWN LARGER
OUR ROOTS WILL GO DEEPER
OUR TREES WILL GROW HIGHER AND NOW WE AWAIT THE RAIN
LET CRY THE SKIES TO CLEANSE THE SOULS
LET FALL THE SEAS TO WASH THE PAIN AWAY
THAT'S THE FINAL RUN TO THE NEW AGE
THAT'S THE FIRST STEP BEYOND THE THRESHHOLD OF THIS WORLD
ONE DROP FOR EVERY BROKEN DREAM
AND ONE FOR EVERY CONCEIVED PLAN
OUR SEEDS SOWN LARGER
OUR ROOTS WILL GO DEEPER
OUR TREES WILL GROW HIGHER AND NOW WE WAIT THE RAIN
HERE RINGS A WARNING
A DAY OF WRATH
FOR ALL THE DAYS OF WAR
A STORM OF FURY
TO CALM THE HUNGER LEFT
OUR SEEDS SOWN LARGER
OUR ROOTS WILL GO DEEPER
OUR TREES WILL GROW HIGHER AND NOW WE WAIT THE RAIN
OUR SEEDS - LARGER
OUR ROOTS - DEEPER
OUR TREES - HIGHER AND WE - STRONGER

 

[JBeukema]

This cant be so all over
And out of my time i've wasted
So much of my mind is racing
To the point of no return

Drown my sorrows flood my soul
By tomorrow i'll be cold
(wash it all away, wash it all away)
Now i'm hollow and alone
Take the shadow
Almost gone
(wash it all away, wash it all away)

Life can be so much colder
I doubt i'm alive, I'm faceless
Lost inside replacements
Fill the void that
Roam the earth

Drown my sorrows flood my soul
By tomorrow i'll be cold
(wash it all away, so cold)
Now i'm hollow and alone
Take the shadow
Almost gone

(raise the stakes what have we got to lose
no choice in sight where's our right to choose
you cant catch a break so take what you can
just ignore the blame you don't understand
cracked picture frames blood stains on the mattress
ashes to ashes - gas cans and matches
bourbon buries all the memories
anything to wash it all away)

Drown my sorrows flood my soul
By tomorrow i'll be cold
(wash it all away, wash it all away, wash it all away)
Now i'm hollow and alone
(both) raise your arrow way to run

(raise the stakes what have we got to lose
no choice in sight where's our right to choose
you cant catch a break so take what you can
just ignore the blame you don't understand
cracked picture frames blood stains on the mattress
ashes to ashes - gas cans and matches
bourbon buries all the memories
anything to wash it all away)

So all over
(wash it all away)

 

[Phoenix]

 

[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]

Locked Away In A Cage
My Rage Has Got The Best Of Me
Time Finds A Way Each Day
Of Leaving Less Of Me Behind
I Find This Fight Must Be Won
Inside The Mind
So Uptight And Confined
Often Blinded By The Light
Taking It's Toll
On My System
Like Some Played Out Existence
Time Ticks Away
These Last Few Moments
Is There Anything
We've Left Unsaid?
I'm On A Quest
For Atonement
I've Got To Find Piece Of Mind
And A Place To Rest
Biding My Time
Until I'm Strong Enough
To Fight Back
Hope,
I Hope Against Hope
For Some Resistance
Been Taking It Out On My System
Rest-There's A Calm Before The Storm
And The Western Front Is Quiet
I've Got Rembrandt As My Right Hand
And Solo As My Pilot
Condemned Man
Condemned
Convicted Man
Convicted
Could Not Save My Life
Cutting Strand By Strand
Passing It Off
Like Some Kind Of King
You Don't Know Peace
'til You've Had Suffering
I've Suffered
All Of Your So Called Resolve
But You Haven't Tasted Pain
Have You Ever Been Inside
Of The New Masterpiece?
Rest
Have You Ever Been Inside?
Rembrandt As My Right Hand
And Solo As My Pilot
Have You Ever Been Inside
Of The New Masterpiece
Condemned Man
Condemned
Convicted Man
Convicted
Could Not Save My Life
Cutting Strand By Strand
Strand By
Strand By
Strand By Strand
Condemned

 

[JBeukema]

What the hell am I?
Thousand eyes, a fly
Lucky then I'd be
In one day deceased

Sickman, sickman, sickman

I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear

Ah, what's the difference, I'll die
In this sick world of mine

What the hell am I?
Leper from inside
Inside wall of peace
Dirty and diseased

Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

I can see the end is getting near
I won't rest until my head is clear

Ah, what's the difference, I'll die
In this sick world of mine

Can you see the end?
Choke on me my friend
Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot

(spoken in backround)
"Yeah, though I walk through the valley of rape and despair
With head high and eyes alert
I tread on a plane of many
We who are of good nature and intention,
But cannot touch on the dark
Recesses of memory
And pain learned, so come walk
With me, feel the pain,
And release it..."
What the hell am I?
Worn eroded pride
Saddened 10 miles wide
I'm gonna let it slide

Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Ah, what's the difference, I'll die
In this sick world of mine
Ahh, etc., etc.

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[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]

Know Me Broken By My Master
Teach Thee On Child Of Love Hereafter

Into The Flood Again
Same Old Trip It Was Back Then
So I Made A Big Mistake
Try To See It Once My Way

Drifting Body Its Sole Desertion
Flying Not Yet Quite The Notion

Am I Wrong?
Have I Run Too Far To Get Home?
Am I Gone?
And Left You Here Alone
If I Would Could You?

 

[Phoenix]

 

[Phoenix]

 

[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]

Don't ask me about the image, I didn't make it

I’ve kept it bottled up inside
This pain … unforgivng
The imperfection is much too shy
To dominate me, control me
I see it’s much too late

I ***** from head to toe about this sweet embrace
And how it faltered
The wickedness that followed as the ‘we’ turned ‘I’
Finally overflowed

Taking the time to call out the tears
Waiting for it to fall, all the years
Pushing for me to leave it all behind
Forcing me to believe I’ll never find

Painting over your name in blood
To set the permanence free
Though I cut the scars to mask the scars you left behind
It still lingers

Taking the time to call out the tears
Waiting for it to fall, all the years
Pushing for me to leave it all behind
Forcing me to believe I’ll never find
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[Phoenix]

 

[JBeukema]