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Jesus we need you. We need thee every hour, O Lord! Come to us now! Minister to us by your Holy Spirit! Please come to us now precious Lord.
I have to share something with you guys. I feel so unworthy this morning. I feel so undone. I cannot tell you how much so. I cannot stop crying. This morning the Lord is reminding me of my heart towards him before I ran away for a season. It might be hard to believe but there was a time when I had nothing to do with political boards. Back then I didn't even know what the word republican meant. I had never voted in my life!! I did not watch television. My life was at his feet. God have mercy upon me! God! Forgive me! I do not know how I ended up in such a state.. it was never my intention to leave him but I did... I would have never believed it to be possible back then...
I wonder, how can he be so merciful and forgiving to me now when he was so good to me all along? When I knew him! He never did anything wrong to me! He has only poured out his mercy and love to me all along and I realize how much I have taken that for granted. I am so sorry, Lord, forgive me.
I am sorry for every careless word I have ever written on a message board, I am sorry for every lie I have ever spoken or written, for every time I denied the truth, I am deeply sorry for every unkind word I have ever spoken, every sin I have ever commited against another human being. Throughout my life, for all my sins, I repent... I repent for unforgiveness I held in my heart in the past, I repent for not loving as I should have. I want to love Jesus. I do not ever want to take him for granted like that again.
I read & listen to music BillBayou puts up and it just breaks me into little pieces, I think of the honesty that is in Billo Really, the compassion that is in Ropey, the love that is in Professor, the beauty in so many people here and I feel so unworthy to even be speaking to you this morning but I want you to know I am repenting before God and before man. I will never write another unkind word on a message board about any human being. Government, politician, ANYONE! I never had any right to do that! I should not have done it and I repent. I thank God he has delivered me and set me free from the desire to ever speak of such things again. I was never any good at politics anyhow! What do I know??! NOTHING! That's what I know! I'm a sinner saved by grace with a low IQ! Seriously, people. That is the truth...
Truly God is a compassionate, loving God to have mercy on such a person as me. I truly do not know why I ran away from him when I should have been running to him. I do not even know if I want to know why. Perhaps it is best that he does not let me know.
I found something I wrote in my bible years ago. I could hardly believe I had written these words as I do not remember writing them. This is how far I fell from him.
No affliction would trouble a child of God if he knew God's power. <-------------- Imagine knowing that and then running from the Lord!
What excuse do I have? I knew his power and yet I still ran from him. Still he drew me back with his cords of love and brought me back to himself. I am so grateful for my fathers love this morning. I am truly grateful for his love. Talk about the mercy of God, people. I am living proof of it! I should be in hell already!! That is the truth!