Gay. Not just gay, but super gay. It's too bad. The sport itself is fantastic. But us Normal men simply cannot watch other men parade around in Pinocchio speedos. Especially gay men. It's just not ok. And that pool..... I imagine it's very heavily chlorinated.
do the math, chief. it's all in the numbers. ten percent of people are born gay.
i have three straight brothers. i have two straight brothers in law...that's five people. between them, they have three straight brothers, and that makes eight, and i am straight so we are up to nine straight men...which means, as the tenth man in this equation, you would be the gay one.
sorry to have to out you like this and all, but you seemed to be having problems with it and that is not good. if you need help, i have a lot of gay friends and would be more than happy to help you get in touch with them for support as you make the transition from being a closeted gay man to being an openly gay man. it is hard but it gets better.
and for the record,
you ARE normal. you're just a little different, but everyone is. don't even worry about it.