Fundamentally selfish.
"What's in it for me", in other words
Yeah. After what I’ve been through (beyond my dad), I’ve learned the o my entities looking out for my well being are ME, MYSELF. and I. I’ve also learned that wasting time worrying about others just takes away from the time I have to protect my Ken interests.
Your God has proven he doesn’t give a fuck about me or mine for 45 years, so I’m definitely not wasting any of my resources on Him or His.