Loving words as usual but I'm wondering if you ever read the Old Testament? Not always a loving Father in my estimation. How many babies were killed by Joshua in Jericho and never got their chance to reach for God?
I once experienced God's love, and I did not walk away from that experience thinking, "How much God loves me!" I walked away awed and amazed thinking, "How much God loves
us!" I wish I could love like that.
I became troubled by the Old Testament. How could anyone portray God as He is portrayed in the Old Testament? I was not wrong, but then...how could so many people and authors of Old Testament accounts be wrong? Christian commentaries were of no help at all, so I turned to commentaries by rabbis and Jewish scholars--the further back the better. I met someone online who assisted me with a basic understanding of what the Hebrew language was all about.
Lisa would chuckle at my astonishment at how differently Christians and modern Western culture when compared to Jews and the cultures of Biblical times. There are many here in the West who view the "Old Testament God" as a savage, murderous baby slayer. Jews and those who lived in Biblical times would laugh hysterically at the West's conclusion.
People of Biblical times started with the foundation that while God is beyond our understanding, we only have our own words, emotions, and perspectives to describe Him. Start every story with the firm knowledge that God is good, loving, just, and merciful. He works for the good of all. He brings good out of our mistakes, out of human evil, because everything on this planet is His creation and He created it good.
The story of the first Passover where the firstborn in Egyptian families were killed may have the West saying, "How horrible for God to do such a thing." Meanwhile, the Jews were more in awe of the mercy God showed to the Egyptians. The Pass Over killed far fewer Egyptians than Egyptians had killed, but the message was firm and clear. I find very few Christians ever wonder exactly what sin humanity was so guilty of before the flood, and who was first guilty of that same sin after the flood.
Christians read the Old Testament and doubt God's love. Modern English and Western culture is the reason for that doubt. If we learned the Old Testament and the feet of the Jews, we would understand Jesus and his teachings even more clearly.