lol, no. Dying to self does not mean to literally die. It means to not have a preference for an outcome or consequence to one's self. I can see that you are a deep thinker.
I am more than happy for you to see me as a fake Christian. No skin off my teeth. I never claimed to be a saint. I'm sure it makes you feel better to believe that you are not an atheist but your behaviors say otherwise. Maybe you are a fake ignostic or agnostic or whatever bullshit rationalized term you are using today.
Yep, that's what I've been saying. Now if you could only figure out that dying to self thingee, you just might find God while you are still living.
I think I will listen to God instead. He is the Pope's boss, lol. I'm going to roll the same way I've been rolling which is to listen for God's quite voice and know that He uses all things for the good of those that love Him. So whether or not I hear Him correctly, I know that whatever happens, He will progress me one way or another.
wait a minute
Not to have a preference of an outcome?
You certainly have a preference. You believe and obey not because you love to believe and obey but because you want the rewards promised if you do believe and obey
The entire christian notion of the afterlife is based on fear and greed the two most powerful of human motivators
I believe the man that lives a good life with the only reward being his own knowledge that he lived a good life and expects nothing else for his good works is a better man than one who expects an eternal reward for doing what he is told
Anyone who is focusing on the destination instead of the journey didn't understand what Christ was teaching. God wants you to love Him for who He is and not what He can do for you. The message of Jesus was focused on this life, not the next.
When we speak of preferences we need to be specific about what we are talking about. For instance, do I have a preference for who will win the game. If I prefer one team over the other I will be more likely to see questionable calls a certain way. We call this subjectivity. We can only be objective when we don't have a preference for an outcome. Dying to self is how we become objective.
So, do I still have preferences? Sure, but I work on not having preferences and I have made great strides from where I began. Am I happier for it? Yes. Great peace is achieved when we can be honest about ourselves and the world around us. Things are what they are, not what we want them to be. Am I more intelligent for it? Absolutely. Being objective is the foundation of logic and reason. Anyone who is objective cannot help but to have his intelligence sharpened.
I agree that a man who lives the good life (i.e. doing the right thing the right way for the right reason) is on a good path. Doing it for God makes it better.