This is what is known as a “Freudian Slip”. It’s when a person inadvertently says what they are actually thinking.
I asked you to list some theoretical examples of hard data that could falsify your beliefs.
You couldn't provide any.
There is apparently no data of any sort that could falsify your beliefs, which puts your beliefs in the category of "religion".
While I hope your religion brings you fulfillment, you need to understand that science doesn't care about your religious beliefs, no matter how devout your belief is.