Megalomania, delusions of grandeur, self inflated ego, over inflated self importance, melodrama.
Do you have ANY awareness or 'feel' for the attitudes Hitler exudes in this chapter? He shows utter disdain for everyone but himself. He is egotistical, condescending, dismissive, narcissistic and even his attempts at humor are belittling or cruel.
There is NO subservience, or 'joining others' in Hitler's mind. He has no desire to 'belong' to this or ANY organization. Hitler sees himself only as a leader, not a follower. The ONLY person he shows any affinity for in this whole chapter is Anton Drexler, because Drexler's 'pamphlet' expressed a desire to build a strong nationalist, pro-military, anti-Semitic party, which is what Hitler planned to do. And Drexler flattered Hitler and it fed his ego.
The 'very grave decision-to begin transforming this intention into reality' is Hitler's intention ONLY; to found a party of his own.
He said: "I had no intention of joining a ready-made party, but wanted to found one of my own." NOW, he has decided the best way to turn that 'intention to found a party of his own' was by taking over this party comprised of men of 'absurd philistinism' that HE "could put into the proper form" HIS!
He had no intention of joining a group and did want to start his own that part is true. But why would he agonize for two days over joining this group if it was his intent to take it over?
"After two days of agonized pondering and reflection, I finally came to the conviction that I had to take this step.
It was the most decisive resolve of my life. From here there was and could be no turning back.
And so I registered as a member of the German Workers' Party and received a provisional membership card with the number 7."
"I was facing the hardest question of my life: should I join or should I decline?"
Why would it be the hardest question for him to answer if it was his intent to join this group and take it over?
Why would he even have to question it? if he knew what he was going to do?
Also here is Hitlers socialist views from Chapter VIII: The Beginning of My Political Activity
The fight against international finance and loan capital became the most important point in the program of the German nation's struggle for its economic independence and freedom.
As regards the objections of so-called practical men, they can be answered as follows: All fears regarding the terrible economic consequences of the ' breaking of interest slavery ' are superfluous; for, in the first place, the previous economic prescriptions have turned out very badly for the German people, and your positions on the problems of national self-maintenance remind us strongly of the reports of similar experts in former times, for example, those of the Bavarian medical board on the question of introducing the railroad. It is well known that none of the fears of this exalted corporation were later realized: the travelers in the trains of the new 'steam horse ' did not get dizzy, the onlookers did not get sick, and the board fences to hide the new invention from sight were given up-only the board fences around the brains of all so-called 'experts' were preserved for posterity.
In the second place, the following should be noted: every idea, even the best, becomes a danger if it parades as a purpose in itself, being in reality only a means to one.
For me and all true National Socialists there is but one doctrine: people and fatherland.
What we must fight for is to safeguard the existence and reproduction of our race and our people, the sustenance of our children and the purity of our blood, the freedom and independence of the fatherland, so that our people may mature for the fulfillment of the mission allotted it by the creator of the universe.