It's off-topic -- but in sentence #1 you claim you never sinned. And in sentence #2 you brag about standing and opposing Him and finding Him "seriously wanting".. I just found it kinda classic self-mutilation... It's no wonder you have issues understanding the DISCIPLINE and HUMILITY it takes to practice religion..
I serve no god or gods. Faith is for fools, for children. Religion provides childish answers for things that are, or cannot, be known.
And I said I have never sinned against God. No such thing is possible. There is no Original Sin in the bible even. No child is born with sin upon them. Idiotic.
And Humility? If I'm made in the image of God, why would I be humble? Is He, or is He, God? If He finds me lacking, that's makes us equal. I would never bow down to the Christian God, He's not worthy of such a thing.
Luckily, the Christian God, B period, S period. A very lucky thing, for God.