Go see a counselor.
At 38, and you can't find a woman, chances are fella - it is you.
A counselor can work with you to figure out what it is that you are doing that is turning the ladies off.
It isn't your weight. Obviously the world is full of married overweight folks.
This is by no means a post saying you are an asshole, only that you may not how to properly act/relate to women.
Someone can help you with that.
And you won't find them here.
My neighbor friend insists on putting 100 octane in his lawn mower. I said he is foolish. First for the cost. The funky exhaust smell is a lot of lead and more noxious. Octane has more to do with inside engine pressure rather than the flash point. Who is right? He says I'm fulla shit. Good guy though. The perfect neighbor in a fantasy book of neighbors
I've always used Shell 93 in my mower. Never had a problem.