I hear you. Where we differ is whereas you were angry, I blamed myself, asking what was wrong with me that I was being treated that way. It wasn't letting it go that helped me. It was the song, Teach Your Children and the line I slightly changed to, "Your parents' hell will slowly go by."
All the hurts, perhaps many of them all unknowing, had me thinking of all the unknowing hurts I may have caused others. God's love is unbelievable, and I had blessing of being enveloped in God's love. My constant quest from that time on has been to try to love like that. It's unbelievable. And, unreachable for humans, but possible to take steps towards it.
What were you looking for from religion?