I have a better idea:Why didn't you lead with telling us about how your cult has effectively lobotomized you with brainwashing? That would have saved everyone a lot of time.
You're delusional. There's no point in normal people wasting any time on you. You're emotionally invested in being very stupid, so no one will be able to convince you to not be stupid. Your entirely feelings-based personality made you easy prey for a cult that tells people how special they are for believing the crazy cult propaganda.
If you don't like people posting their opinions here on USMB then why don't you get lost so you won't be so upset 24/7 about it.