God isn’t a process or a thing. Not only does God exist independent of man God is the source or matrix of the material world providing reality to all places at all times.The process or events which make up what we call God exist independent of men. Men’s minds make this process manifest but the process is independent of man’s manifestation of the process.
According to you your perception of God does not exist until men exist. So according to you your perception of God is dependent on men.
This is really weird because you are showing you need for God to exist but only on your terms. It’s almost as if you are unconsciously revolting against your atheism but consciously can bear to let go of it.