God is love, God is goodness. Start with that. Next, our first ancestors decided they wanted to know both good and evil. Knowing both good and evil opens the way for us to know ourselves, who we truly are both in good times and in bad, even in evil times.
Could it be, that whatever it is you are going through in this life, you are looking for someone to blame, and you are not all that interested in coming to know God; rather your interest is in finding fault with God? Is that who the self you are truly is? A fault-finder of others, even God?
One thing I've learned about God that I try to emulate is that God brings good out evil. Whatever the evil you are seeing in your own life and blaming God for, could you, instead, find your own talent in bringing good out of that evil?