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Finding the Truth in Iraq
A soldier's fears turned to pride in a four-month deployment
By Carissa Lee, Staff Sergeant, U.S. Air Force
I'm guilty, too. Saying it now sort of sums up a lot of feelings for me, but it is true. I recall the day my phone rang at work and on the other end was the bearer of what I considered to be the worst news I had ever heard - I was slated to deploy to Iraq for 120 days. I hung up the phone in disbelief and a multitude of emotions overcame me. The most prevalent of them was fear - after all, I watch the news like most other Americans and what I saw every day was enough to convince me I was off to an unknown future at best. Fear made way for anger, then sadness, then nervousness. I honestly think I went through every emotion known to a person in the weeks and days prior to departing New York for my four-month odyssey.
And then a strange thing happened. All of those negative feelings and emotions vanished. Not immediately, but eventually. It took me all of about a week to find my niche. The one thing about deployments - you certainly aren't alone. Everywhere you look there are people in the same exact situation as you. They all have husbands or wives, kids and parents. And everywhere I looked, the one thing that struck me was how much every person put their heart into their jobs.
The only way I can describe it is to steal a quote from a friend of mine: "Everything in Iraq is multiplied by 10" - meaning that every emotion, every relationship, everything, feels about 10 times more intense than it would anywhere else.
I heard from the people back home on a regular basis and I had no idea how much America supports what we are doing. All of the negativity we are exposed to from the media vanished. What I found to be true was not what I saw on the TV or read on the Internet. It was exactly the opposite.
Here's what the truth is:
We rebuilt schools for Iraqi children.
We painted and restored mosques, hospitals, businesses.
We handed out donated school supplies to children.
We taught firemen, policemen and EMTs life-saving skills.
We awarded business contracts to women who never had an opportunity to be successful under the regime of Saddam.
We trained the Iraqi Air Force and Army how to defend their country.
We supported millions of Iraqis in the first free election their country has held in decades.
In short, we molded history. We put our footprints in the pages of time and that is something nobody can take away from us. It is something I will be proud of until I leave this earth. War changes people. But it can change you for the better, and I think it did that to me.
So, yes, I am guilty, too. I am guilty of believing the hype on the television that what America is doing in Iraq makes no sense. I am guilty of thinking that it is all death and destruction. I am guilty of thinking that the Iraqis don't appreciate what we are doing for them.
But, I now know better. I'll steal another quote, this one from a young Iraqi woman I met one day when we were helping her and her family start up their business. When we were departing she came up to me and grabbed my arm. Her eyes bore into mine and all I could focus on was her tears - tears of joy and gratitude. I'll never forget what she said to me. "You Americans are angels." She was only one of the people I was blessed to meet, but her words meant so much. So, yes, we are doing the right thing. And I am proud to say I was a part of it all.
http://www.pabaah.com/
A soldier's fears turned to pride in a four-month deployment
By Carissa Lee, Staff Sergeant, U.S. Air Force
I'm guilty, too. Saying it now sort of sums up a lot of feelings for me, but it is true. I recall the day my phone rang at work and on the other end was the bearer of what I considered to be the worst news I had ever heard - I was slated to deploy to Iraq for 120 days. I hung up the phone in disbelief and a multitude of emotions overcame me. The most prevalent of them was fear - after all, I watch the news like most other Americans and what I saw every day was enough to convince me I was off to an unknown future at best. Fear made way for anger, then sadness, then nervousness. I honestly think I went through every emotion known to a person in the weeks and days prior to departing New York for my four-month odyssey.
And then a strange thing happened. All of those negative feelings and emotions vanished. Not immediately, but eventually. It took me all of about a week to find my niche. The one thing about deployments - you certainly aren't alone. Everywhere you look there are people in the same exact situation as you. They all have husbands or wives, kids and parents. And everywhere I looked, the one thing that struck me was how much every person put their heart into their jobs.
The only way I can describe it is to steal a quote from a friend of mine: "Everything in Iraq is multiplied by 10" - meaning that every emotion, every relationship, everything, feels about 10 times more intense than it would anywhere else.
I heard from the people back home on a regular basis and I had no idea how much America supports what we are doing. All of the negativity we are exposed to from the media vanished. What I found to be true was not what I saw on the TV or read on the Internet. It was exactly the opposite.
Here's what the truth is:
We rebuilt schools for Iraqi children.
We painted and restored mosques, hospitals, businesses.
We handed out donated school supplies to children.
We taught firemen, policemen and EMTs life-saving skills.
We awarded business contracts to women who never had an opportunity to be successful under the regime of Saddam.
We trained the Iraqi Air Force and Army how to defend their country.
We supported millions of Iraqis in the first free election their country has held in decades.
In short, we molded history. We put our footprints in the pages of time and that is something nobody can take away from us. It is something I will be proud of until I leave this earth. War changes people. But it can change you for the better, and I think it did that to me.
So, yes, I am guilty, too. I am guilty of believing the hype on the television that what America is doing in Iraq makes no sense. I am guilty of thinking that it is all death and destruction. I am guilty of thinking that the Iraqis don't appreciate what we are doing for them.
But, I now know better. I'll steal another quote, this one from a young Iraqi woman I met one day when we were helping her and her family start up their business. When we were departing she came up to me and grabbed my arm. Her eyes bore into mine and all I could focus on was her tears - tears of joy and gratitude. I'll never forget what she said to me. "You Americans are angels." She was only one of the people I was blessed to meet, but her words meant so much. So, yes, we are doing the right thing. And I am proud to say I was a part of it all.
http://www.pabaah.com/