For reasons not necessary to express here, I do have some good memories of Christmas growing up but for the most part it was a time of adult drunkenness, family fights, stress, unpleasantries that continued to haunt me into my adult life. I was determined to make Christmas a joyful celebration with good memories for my husband and children, however, and I believe for the most part I succeeded. And that part has been rewarding. But I still feel the old tapes running too often in the Christmas season with accompanying stress, depression etc. which I accept as the way it is for me.
So a mixed bag of fun and joy in which I honestly enjoy the season coupled with enough stress/reactive depression to be glad when it's over. But focusing on others' joy and the reason for the Season and leaning on my faith definitely helps. For those for whom Christmas is a pure delight, blessings upon you.
And also those for you for whom it isn't so much, you need those blessings most. Many of us do understand quite well.