Which is why all the spending on my Cancer care if I were to get it has already been done.... I've got the gun and the bullet. It's actually put aside specially for that potential occassion (cancer or a number of other things).
Yep, because it's obvious, we aren't ever going to find a cure or be treated correctly waiting on the doctors~
I had a friend who, like so many others, was sicker with the chemo treatment than from the cancer. She opted to take an early retirement and take a trip around the world to spots she had always hoped to visit, knowing she would die sooner rather than later, but at least enjoy those final days.
I specifically state in my Advanced Directive that I'm to receive no chemotherapy, ever, even if I'm in a state where someone else is making decisions for me. Just pull the plug if I'm ever that sick. I've had a great life, with few regrets.
I was surprised to see this thread pop back up in my User CP today, but less surprised that I said that (above). That's been my conviction for many, many years.
HOWEVER, not long after this thread began, I started noticing a swelling in my neck accompanied by thick, stringy saliva. So I went to my GP, who sent me to an ENT who performed a biopsy. Yup, non-Hodgkins lymphoma currently staging in the neck nodes which I've been having 5-day/week radiation plus 1 day per week infusion of Erbitux (Cetuximab), which is not a chemical (chemo) but rather a monoclonal antibody originally derived from mice but now derived from human antibody cells. It inhibits the growth receptors of cells which have divided into sarcoma (cancer) cells. I've had absolutely none of the usual side effects which often result from chemical infusions (chemotherapy) and which also kills the body's heathy cells (thus the sickness from it).
Aside from taking a whole lot of time away from my normal activities for daily treatments which will last through September, establishing entirely new eating habits, and daily regimens with Rx and OTC schedules, I look at this new invasion of my lifestyle as just temporary and I'm determined to get through it. If not, if it spreads and I find I will be more sick eventually from treatment than the actual disease, at that point, my Advanced Directive will rule, and that is just to assure some quality of life and with minimum pain.
It's been amazing to see how fast my attitude changed, once I realized that treating cancer even 20 years ago is far, far advanced today. Cancer specialists are also much more aware that they need to treat the emotional side effects and can no longer just shuttle patients through test after test and with a pat on the head just instruct them to do as they say. My oncology team constantly assures me that I AM THE BOSS. I am the patient, and if something isn't "working" for me, then it's up to THEM to design therapy around my body blueprint and my comfort zone, not just what's convenient or favored by them in general.
After the weekly treatments, I have a consultation with my primary oncologist and we go over the results, and at that time I'm able to present my list of questions (and suggestions!) which we also review. I think I've become either one of his best patients or one of his worst patients!!
So far, it's an incredible journey, and sure to be the longest chapter in that book I keep gathering notes along the way to write some day. Stay tuned! I've been thinking about how I would let my friends on USMB know what's been going on with me, or whether I should bother at all, since I don't personally know any of you but many have become anonymous confidants and friends, although many of us also greatly disagree on political matters. I think eventually we all come to realize how insignificant those differences truly are, frankly.
So I'm glad to have found the opening to do that. I had totally forgotten this thread existed.
Maggie
PS: I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm
way past that process (Oh God,
why me??!! ) You can drive yourself to suicide trying to figure out the answer to that!