You're unable to take ownership of your own judgment and morality, shifting the responsibility onto this "God" entity that you've created. You fail, if not refuse to see the inherent value of life and the self-evident patterns of behavior that ensure its survival and success hence your inability to thoughtfully plot your own course through the thicket of your mortal existence.
You're not moral, because ethical people don't refrain from stealing, raping, and murdering others, only when they're ordered to from "on high" by a deity that is threatening them with eternal damnation or enticing them with an eternal reward in heaven. They don't abuse, injure, violate, or kill other people because it's an affront to their inherent sense of human decency. They possess a sense of solidarity with other human beings and feel empathy towards them, because at the end of the day, we're all human beings, on board the same sinking ship. They don't avoid such evil acts out of fear of being tortured in hell by an angry deity.
Your version of "God" isn't too convincing or even worthy of our love and respect. This deity that you created in your own image, doesn't have a clue of what it is to be a mortal human being, subject to all of the hazards, ignorance, and weaknesses that you and I have to experience. When we go to our death, we enter that dark room without a flashlight, we have no idea what's going to happen to us, if anything. We truly face death as a mortal being, unlike this god you worship who was born of an immaculate virgin and knew every single day of his supposed human life that he was the son of an infinite god. Do you and I have such a privilege? Knowing that we have the power to raise ourselves up from the dead?
Your religion is flawed and nothing more than a manifestation of your fear and unwillingness to come to terms with reality, as it truly is. It's time to grow up and become an adult. There's no heavenly sugar daddy.