You haven't done a thing wrong; never thought you did, never suggested you did.
So why did you "reject" the faith I had for so many, many decades of my life?
Do you OFTEN reject that which people do correctly?
We are simply discussing different Biblical perspectives. One perspective is that the Bible presents God has genocidal maniac. That is not my perspective and I have explained why. You see it differently and you explained why. So what is the problem with us having that simple discussion?
Because right now you have a theologically difficult God concept on your hands. You have a God that is built in part on your personal "feelings" and the Bible. The Bible lays out the metes and bounds of the Christian God. The God YOU worship. Your "pure reason" did NOT arrive at the concept of Jesus as the sacrifice to God (God manifesting himself to sacrifice himself to himself to atone man to himself). That was 100% Bible.
In fact much of what you "know" about God is 100% Bible. On TOP of that you put your feelings and "experiences".
I'm simply trying to figure out the RUBRIC you use to figure out which parts of the BIble are FALSE AND MADE UP and which parts are TRUE.
And we aren't talking "allegory" and "metaphor" here. We are talking LIES. So if someone says "God's prophet told me to kill everyone in that building" there is no "metaphor" there. That's a lie.
I agree with you (or what I think you are trying to say) that the Israelites probably made up their "justification" for the slaughter by suggesting it was God's plan. But at the end of the day there is no way to really parse out that from ALL THE OTHER slaughters in the OT at God's command or with God's explicit help.
In fact, unless you completely excise most of the Pentateuch you are stuck with a God that is a very confusing mess of ideas.
You and I both find genocide to be horrible. We both do.
So when faced with the FACT that the Bible (which establishes the CORE of what God IS in our minds) contains a VERY LARGE NUMBER OF STORIES OF GOD BEING VICIOUS and a murderous maniac, YOU take a surgical scalpel to the holy word and, using your own rationale (flawed, less perfect than God who presumably INSPIRED the Bible) and you are creating a God of your making.
I, on the other hand, say "If I create a god of my own making, am I not just worshiping my imagination?" And I take the other route of saying "well, these stories make sense if we are talking about a made up thing."
I may very well be wrong. You may be right.
But at the end of the day ULTIMATE TRUTH is only one way. You THINK you got it right because no one wants to think they are in error. I THINK I have it right.
Since I see more philosophical and theological INCONSISTENCIES in your position I will continue to see my position as superior.
But I don't want YOU to follow my lead. Just telling you what I see.
How do I "feel" God? Why are you supposing I "feel" anything?
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I have noted I have had experience of God, and I don't care to discuss those with you, because anything that happened to me will be as worthless to you as the Bible.
You think the Bible is worthless to me? So you haven't read ANYTHING I've written?
You seem to want an experience,
I have exactly as much experience of God as I think I can have. 0.
and that is why I asked what you expected. I am still not sure why you found that so offensive.
I found it offensive that YOU COULD ASK ME but when I turned the question around you told me you wouldn't talk about it.
Felt like hypocrisy.