God created existence. What you do with it is up to you. Blaming God for man's failures is ridiculous and a textbook example of an external locus of control.
Again... your problem is you have never made any effort to search for a realistic perception of God. So everything you see is skewed to your unrealistic perception of God which is fairytale. I wouldn't believe in the God you perceive either.
My perception of God is that God is infinite logic, infinite truth, infinite intelligence, infinite wisdom, infinite knowledge, infinite love, infinite patience, infinite justice, infinite mercy, infinite kindness and infinite goodness. I am not saying God has those attributes. I am saying God is those attributes. The polar opposite of those attributes are not extant. They only exist as the negation of the attribute. And that's how I know God is good and compassionate. Because good and compassion exist.
So what is the perception of God you have looked for?