As death comes nearer, you learn to hang on to life a lot more.
When i was 18 I was taking crazy chances, jumping out of planes on uncle sam's dime and not caring if I was croaked.
Someday if I want it, I'll have my 6x6 at arlington but I can tell you, it's better to be alive, there is no death I want or want others to suffer.
Hold on to your life kiddo, death comes to us all, and soon enough.
Good advise, X.
Amanda
The idea of life is to LIVE for a purpose, not to DIE for one.
And THIS war in Afghanistan isn't going to serve anyone whatsoever, anyway.
Afghanistan is where empires go to commit suicide.
Seriously, do some reading about Afghanistan, and the Pashtoon people.
They don't want us there.
We are serving no national or intenational purpose, and as to wiping out AlQaeda?
That's not going to happen in Afghanistan, either.
But I don't really have a purpose. I'm not really good at anything. I'm not smart. I'm not clever. No one except maybe my family would really miss me if I disappeared tomorrow. I think that if I could do some good for someone it would be better than sitting here not doing anything.
And I disagree they don't want us there. Maybe some don't Maybe even most. But I guarantee if you're on your knees in a soccer field and there's an AK47 at the back of your head you DO want someone there. Maybe this tug at my heart is one of their prayers that found it's way to me. I don't know offhand how you feel about religion or spirituality but so many times I've seen how God puts just the right people together and I can't help but think that's what's happening to me. Could you not go if you thought you'd be ignoring a prayer?
I have been a pretty vile person at times in my life but it's really hard for me to resist this pull. I'm still feeling very selfish and resisting but it gets harder each day.
So basically you want to commit suicide by military service?
What did they DO to you, Amanda, to make you think you need an EXCUSE to live?
LIFE is its OWN EXCUSE, my dear girl.
You need a significant other.... a
good one.
Don't we all?
FWIW, you need to stop living your life in the hope of making other people
proud of you.
You were not put on this earth for that purpose.
You were put on this earth to try to have some fun, a little happiness, maybe to make somebody else happy once in while, too.
That's about all any of us can do.
I don't care if all you can do is serve coffee that's MORE THAN ENOUGH to justify your existence.
This is what happens to people in a society that worships money.
We all end up thinking that if we're not superstars we're worthless.
Stop beating yourself up.
I've known a LOT of superstars and while their contributions to this society are
titanic, many of them aren't worth the dogshit I scape my shoe,
as PEOPLE.
If you really want to do something that serves a higher purpose, I can put you to work doing
that today.
You don't need to be a rocket scientist, I have plenty of extremely useful things that you can do for Rosetta.
The only problem is I cannot PAY you
...not yet, at least...and maybe never, either.
Does that matter to you?