The OP is the same sort of defective as shitshisdpeedoes. A total, worthless loser with nothing to even pretend to have a shred of self-respect about, let alone pride. Realizing this, they are reduced to grasping at the most superficial physical characteristic - one that indicates absolutely nothing about themselves and serves only to highlight their utter failure as individuals - in a futile attempt to fabricate any identity at all, since in truth they have none. These pathetic nobodies live what cannot really be called a life in ignorance, weakness, and fear.