Don't be offended that I find much in the Jewish religion ridiculous. You yourself must realize that fact, I'm sure every Jew realizes it. So your typical Jew has a choice of adhering to a bunch of ridiculous rules that make life literally impossible to live, or abandoning some of the rules and sticking to others in a hodgepodge manner, or abandoning all the rules and living with the guilt of not being a faithful Jew.
I offer a way out, convert to Christianity, which is a much more reasonable religion, and also has the advantage of being true since Jesus is the Messiah you have been waiting for.
The biggest problem the major rabbis had in post WWII America was how to maintain the almost infinite world of Torah observance in a world where most Torah giants were murdered.
The sad fact, that is only NOW being addressed, is the HEART of Torah is just as important as the MIND of Torah.
The Yeshivah system is VERY uninspiring.
I continued studying AFTER school and have been learning the MEANING of all the commandments and how they help me connect to God.
It CANNOT be explained in a post.
Christianity is Idol Worship...punishable for a Jew by death by court or a very unpleasant afterlife.