We had different experiences with gods / GOD.
Gods and god are two totally different things. In the US-American world the typical structure of such discussions is that modern atheists repeat the arguments of traditional Christians for monotheism against polytheism and make the mistake to include monotheism into polytheism.
Personal Jesus? I heard that. But I don't know what this could mean. Jesus is always Jesus for everyone. No one has an own Jesus which says the opposite of the Jesus of another one. It exist not many truthes - it exists only one truth.
And I repeat I am a deist of sorts, I am not an atheist.
So you seem to think a god (or many gods) exist (whatever this could be in this context) - but no one has any message from this god and/or gods. Or with other words: You like the idea that only "rationality" is god. Why you think so - if you really think so - is a secret to me.
The bible is in this case much more concrete.
"In the beginning was the word (=logos) and the word (=logos) was with god and god was the word (=logos)" - that's the Christian creation story. God is rationality pure (the way - or better to say all possible ways for all possible beings). But god is also the love = the direction - or the compass - for to find the right individual way. Rationality is able to be unbelievable cruel without love.
Logos alone - for example mathematics including music - needs orientation, needs priorities, needs love - because it's easy to go lost in this never ending world of never ending possibilities.
In my experience I became one with GOD,
You became what? Do you take yourselve serios when you say such a nonsense? ... Hmm ... as far as I remember did not even Meister Eckhardt become "one with god" - whatever this could be, because god is not only god as he had been since ever - god is also always new.
¿No matter what I do? Everything is always with anything else in co-existence. I don't think we are really able to seperate anything from each other. The problem is not to get lost and to find always again the right way.
you still see yourself as separate from your god.
God is creator. I am creation. I'm a child of god but I'm not god. No one and nothing should be god for anyone except god. This "tell" us all the people who failed when they made might or money or anything else to their "personal" god.
If your only prayer you ever say in your entire life is 'thank you', it will be enough
Meister Eckhart