The command was given in the New Testament. And, no, I am not bewildered. I am quite certain.
As I said I do believe that Jesus commanded followers to eat his flesh and drink his blood without which no one can have life in them, eternal life in the sanctuary of God while still living on earth as promised by God for compliance with the instruction of Divine Law.
You profess to believe that Jesus meant for followers to worship and eat a trinity in the form of a lifeless matzo made by human hands to be worthy of eternal life (after you die) which amounts to idolatry and teaching this abomination that causes desolation to others amounts to intentional murder. Clear irrefutable and inexcusable violations of Divine Law. Maybe bewildered isn't the right word.
I say the command to "eat my flesh" is a direct reference to kosher law which reveals that the hidden subject of kosher law, the flesh of Jesus, hidden manna from the hidden God, is about teaching whether clean or unclean, the described animals, cattle, swine, dogs, bottom feeders, etc. are metaphors for human archetypes. Unless you receive this teaching and do it you cannot cannot have the life promised for complying with the Law in you even if you ate all of the eucharists in the world.
You are just wrong. This teaching from God came into the world through Jesus. Words from God cannot be made by human hands or handed out and eaten like a cheap snack food. Derp.
Your problem is that your church also taught you to 'believe' that any rational and logical objection to the absurdity of their professed beliefs and practices are a satanic attack from the devil himself whether those objections arise in your own mind or come from others. This effectively turns your mind against itself and isolates you from anyone with the integrity to alert you to your errors preventing any possibility of you escaping from your hell or ever noticing that the real devils are the ones who beguiled you into becoming and remaining Catholic.
The Church of Rome has misled you using the power of death consequent to defying the Law of God to enslave you. You have been fooled, conned out of control of your own mind, life, and cash.
Is that too hard for a believer in Jesus to believe?