It is a shame when ideology trumps humanity. I'm going out on a limb here and assuming that once you were a compassionate person, a person with humanity and humility. A caring, loving person.
But those virtues have been driven out of you by a warped, indifferent, cold and callous political ideology. An ideology that does not permit introspection, but demands total obedience. An ideology that sees people as rapists, drug dealers, murderers first and never ever families, mothers fathers and siblings. To see the house manitou in these people would make it difficult to have any empathy with them.
Why did you sell out your humanity for a hate filled ideology? Did a New York real estate developer sell you a crappy time share with no way out of the deal?