Your generic god is harmless enough. I actually like theists like you because there is no hell for doubting and I admit there are things we can't answer. I think you know its theists that I reject not a god.
I just really dont believe there is a " god". Who knows whatever you're talking about. Its so vague and generic that I dont even qualifies as what people believe is god. Youre just talking about a creator. OK so does it care? Did it prepare a heaven for you or talk to move Joe Larry curly and come visit moses and send his son? When were we never just making shit up which is all youre doing.
Wow, you're kind of up and down on the subject aren't you? You reject theism and not God, but you don't believe God exists, but you're not really sure, maybe something exists, maybe it doesn't, makes no sense that it wouldn't but you can't believe that it does.
I think, if the curtain of truth could be pulled back on you, we'd find that you are a very spiritual person who does believe in a Creator. From my conversations with you, I sense that you have had some previous experience with religion, probably fundamentalist variety, and you either weren't devoted to learning how to cultivate your spiritual connection or those who could have taught you, failed badly. Either way, it has put you off religion as a whole, and now you crusade against all religion.
The things that I believe are important for you to know are: 1) You are not alone. Lots of people are just as confused and uncertain as you are but God is still there always. 2) Nothing in your past impedes your ability to connect spiritually. 3) God knows your heart and you cannot hide from Him.
My mother recently passed away from cancer. One of the last cards she sent me means the world to me. In her last paragraph, she is pleading with me to get in church... she was a devout Christian woman and never gave up on trying to "save" me, her 'wayward' son. But her last sentence was so profound and it will remain with me forever....
God Inhibits the Praise of His Children.
Think about that for a moment, it's important. God doesn't need us, we need God. If God required our praise there would be no physical way for us to avoid it... like breathing oxygen, it would simply be a physical thing we had to do in order to survive.