I sort of doubted Him a bit and I'm feeling horrible about it too. There are just some sins in my life that I just can't seem to shake as well. I still love Him a whole lot though and I want to continue my friendship/relationship with Him but I just don't know how and not so sure I'm worthy of having an eternal life with Him right now even though I still desperately want to. I'm just scared that I won't because I'm not a hundred percent sure where to go from here or how to reconcile with Him.