The language job I had in the Air Force carried the highest clearance (SCI) that I did get but lost later on, along with my continued training in Texas, when I turned myself in for drugs. I still retained Top Secret though, when I went on to another assignment in Wyoming.
US Military: Spy Plane Crash in China
Before that, I did have orders to be an aviator like the ones who were downed by a Chinese jet and taken capture. That all is a black project I have always understood.
Black project - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Basically, I was a spy, and over the years, having come close to doing that affected my thoughts and behavior in subtle ways.
I guess the first time I got the idea to try something really interesting was about 12 years ago, I had bought a pretty cloth handbag much earlier and just had to try it out this one night. I bought it along on one of my driving trips and carried it into Safeway in Daly City, CA. I got as far as the meat aisle, when I swore this guy was smiling and ready to laugh, and I hightailed it out of there. I always have gotten embarrassed easily.
That is the only time I have done anything out of the ordinary, although three years ago, I got that itch again and ordered a blonde wig on the internet. When I got it, I tried it on a few times but couldn't figure out how to get it to stay in the right place. My dog really freaked out. I had the idea to go out with it on but knew that was unlikely since also I don't know how to apply make-up to make myself look like a girl. If I could do all that and with being so skinny, I would I suppose look pretty hot. I gave the idea up in a couple of days and threw out the wig. I don't think it was an idea really and far more like a fantasy. If I had someone to help me do it right, who knows.
I can't really say what I would do until I went out there and saw how it felt. Walk to a theater and go to a movie maybe? I can't go to a bar, because I only can control drinking now at home, and I wouldn't trust myself.
Why would I do it? For a thrill. I have had plenty of thrills while bicycling, but being a girl would be totally hot. It is just a fantasy I expect.
That reminds me, I did take this one girl to a motel from a nightclub, but we just talked luckily, because my friend told me later, that black girl was a tranny. I could not tell anyhow.
If a girl came on to you strong, what would you do?
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