You keep making this about Left vs. Right.
I keep making it about Left vs. Right because it IS about Left vs. Right. That's what has happened. That's the change, and I don't like it either: I can remember when people freely wore campaign buttons and had bumper stickers, and nobody fought, but the simple wearing of a MAGA baseball hat now leads to being beaten up by leftist crazies. People are afraid to say what side they are on in public. Nevertheless, most people have figured out what side they are on.
When the American Revolution was going on, there were Yanks, Tories, and fence sitters. You are a born fence sitter, at best, but that was no time to refuse to choose a side and this isn't either.
I personally believe you are a Leftist who is trying to subvert the Right from an unusual direction, but this constant shaming us that we won't OBEY whatever the Left wants us to do and think and say ---this is not going to work.