Same, but i never actually.took any pleasure in harming people, and especially not in getting harmed. And the first time i used my training on someone and starched them with a broken face, i felt absolutely horrible. All i could think about was how i could have avoided or changed the situation. How i severely injured a person who might have gone home that night intact, had i conducted myself differently. And i never looked back. In the 25 years since, i have been in maybe 3 fights (i might argue 2 don't count, as they basically involved me submitting a person screaming in pain after 0 strikes thrown), and i hope i am in 0 more.