Yes. If you tell your child to not go to the road, and they disobey you, you punish them in order to teach them something to keep them safe. But the punishment from your god is not designed to teach anything. It's pain for nothing but the sake of pain. You think this legendary cesspool of eternal misery and torture is the product of a loving being. Tell me, what part of divine love requires torture for appeasement? When did you determine that pain, blood, fear, and torture is the currency of choice of this god in his dealings with us.
But the main issue here is that, for some reason, you believe that you can love what you fear, or fear what you love. That's called dysfunctional relationship. In light of what you believe it has in store for you should it suspect an insincerity on your part, your love is based on coercion.