For me to believe in your God, I want you to prove to me that your God actually exists, and is not just a theory.
Not certain to whom that is addressed....but if it is myself, you misunderstand.
I don't proselytize.
But, on that subject, this may be pertinent:
1.Arthur Koestler resigned from the German Communist Party on April 22, 1938. At that point he was a non-Communist, not an anti-Communist.
2. In “Darkness at Noon,” published in 1940, Koestler writes about the 1938 Moscow Show Trials. This, from the novel:
“There are only two conceptions of human ethics, and they are at opposite poles. One of them is Christian and humane,
declares the individual to be sacrosanct, and asserts that the rules of arithmetic are not to be applied to human units.
The other starts from
the basic principle that a collective aim justifies all means, and not only allows, but demands, that the individual should in every way be subordinated and sacrificed to the community which may dispose of it as an experimentation rabbit or a sacrificial lamb.
The first conception could be called anti-vivisection morality, the second, vivisection morality. Humbugs and dilettantes have always tried to mix the two conceptions; in practice, it is impossible. Whoever is burdened with power and responsibility finds out on the first occasion that he has to choose; and he is fatally driven to the second alternative.” (p. 157)
My view may tend toward the Manichean, but I see the world the way that Arthur Koestler does, described above.
One can be either for the individual or for the collective.
A belief in God tend to argue for the former.